your slow shaking fingertips show

Mon, 07 Jan 2008 17:15:35 GMT

I have gay porn on my friends list.

Now to be honest, I don't know how the fuck it got there. I don't know if it's some weird joke, but I'm APPARENTLY part of this weird community...harenchibox...or something. I didn't friend it! I swear I didn't! D: This is ....this is WEIRD! I don't think Shinji would've signed me up for it...!

Just because I like him and I want him doesn't mean I want to watch gay porn. :<

Oh well. It's deleted now.

Happy new year to everyone!

Fans

Sat, 06 Oct 2007 08:49:13 GMT

Don't panic, but I got into a car accident. D: D: D: Well, uh, it was the other guy's fault. He was going way fast so I was following him and then he suddenly slammed on his brakes, and I didn't stop in time and we collided pretty hard. And then the car behind ME slammed into me from behind and then I was kinda crunched between the two. My poor car is dead now. :( But I'm alive! At least! And I didn't get hurt ...uh...too bad?

Just a broken leg D: D: Which sucks cos now I have this big white cast on it...and I have to be on crutches. So I might be on crutches for the concerts, guys! Or maybe just play in a chair...

It's really hard to rock out with a broken leg.

Maybe if you guys are lucky, I'll let all my fans sign my cast! :D You guys can give me -your- autographs!

...I can't wait till eight weeks are up, man...

Mon, 01 Oct 2007 03:51:06 GMT

1.I've come to realize that :
I might be more gay than I thought before.

2. I've come to realize that, I talk :
When I'm not supposed to.

3. I've come to realize that, I love :
Shinji. Completely.

4. I've come to realize that, I have:
More than enough to be happy.

5. I've come to realize that, I lost :
Ferret-san. I don't know where he is. Somewhere in the house I think.

6. I've come to realize that, I hate it when :
The band's not really doing much.

8. I've come to realize that, marriage is :
Maybe something I'll consider, someday.

9. I've come to realize that, somewhere, someone is thinking :
Of me? In that big somewhere out there?

10. I've come to realize that, I'll always be :
Stupid.

11. I've come to realize that, I have a crush on :
Tachibana-san.

12. I've come to realize that, The last time I cried was :
Recently. I don't know when.

13. I've come to realize that, My cell phone is :
A camera too! :D

14. I've come to realize that when I wake up in the morning :
I want to stay in bed all day with Shinji.

15. I've come to realize that, Before I go to sleep at night I:
Like to play guitar.

16. I've come to realize that, Right now I am thinking about :
Shinji again.

17. I've come to realize that, Babies are :
Kinda cute. And drooly.

18. I've come to realize that, I get on livejournal :
When I feel emo.

19. I've come to realize that, Today I:
Wanna sleep in.

20. I've come to realize that, Tonight I will :
Go to sleep with Shinji?

21. I've come to realize that, Tomorrow I will :
Probably find Ferret-san in a cupboard somewhere.

22. I have come to realize I want to :
Stay like this for a while.

23. I've come to realize that, The person who is most likely to repost this:
Who knows.

Mon, 27 Aug 2007 10:56:51 GMT

So my birthday was yesterday. Naturally it kinda rocked. :D :D :D :D TOTALLY DID OMG :D :D :D :D

SO YEAH UH I LOVE YOU GUYS ALL OF YOU! ALL THE FANS! EVEN YUUTA, AND KIRIHARA MAYBE, AND MIZUKI-SAN AND JIROU AND ATOBE AND YAGYUU AND SENGOKU AND ALL THE STUPID FUCKING MODELS OF THE WORLD AND I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH! Seriously you guys! Without you, I'm nothing! :D :D :D

But I LOVE SHINJI more than all of you combined :D :D :D sorry. :D :D I just really love Shinji...a lot... :D :D :D :D :D :D

Is it just me or does the sky look a little bluer? :D It's not as blue as Shinji's eyes. But it's blue, and it's pretty...and Shinji's apartment complex has these rose bushes growing out front...it's so pretty...:D :D :D

I feel amazing :D :D :D

Sun, 26 Aug 2007 07:10:02 GMT

I'm twenty one, bitches. What now.

And I'm spendin' it moving in with Shinji. Fucking awesome.

SHINJI <3 <3 <3

Tue, 14 Aug 2007 05:34:21 GMT

OH MY GOD YOU GUYS SHINJI LOVES ME AND I LOVE SHINJI AND I'M A DUMBASS FOR NOT REALIZING SOONER AND HE'S A DUMBASS FOR NOT TELLING ME BUT MAYBE IT'S ALRIGHT CAUSE NOW HE AND I ARE TOGETHER AND WE'LL BE TOGETHER FOREVER AND AND AND AND

:D :D :D :D :D

♥

Sun, 29 Jul 2007 23:29:07 GMT

So -- uh -- I watched Atobe's porn.

Yeah. That's weird.

I DON'T LIKE ATOBE ANYMORE THOUGH. God, that guy frustrates me! >O He's like my boss, but he's taking away all the cool people. Like Jirou...

and Kirihara's not cool, but him too. One month suspension my ass. >|

Thu, 12 Jul 2007 10:12:48 GMT

The fuck is wrong with me.

The fuck is wrong with me.

So I'm gay too. Yay. As if that's not fucking enough, everything is fucking FUCKED up, and I fucked everything up for the rest of my fucking life because I had to fucking go with that fucking guy and hang out and have fun and he just had to fucking tell me just what the fuck was wrong with me.

I'm fucking queer. I fucking want Shinji. I'm fucking jealous of that fucking Kajimoto kid and he didn't do a goddamned thing wrong. I still fucking hate him. I still fucking don't think he's fucking good enough for Shinji, even if he is a fucking model. And fuck if I don't fucking think that maybe just maybe I could be that maybe Shinji might -- just...might....want...me too.

Who the fuck am I kidding.

We fucking kissed. That's not a fucking sign, Akira. You can't fucking think just cause he fucking kissed you back and made you see fucking stars that he fucking wants you too.

He wants that Kajimoto guy.

I'm okay with it.

I'm okay with it.

I'm okay with it.

I'm okay with it.

I'm not okay.

I'm not fucking okay.

It's not alright.

how the fuck am i supposed to see him tomorrow.

fuck.

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck i need so

i need shi

i want shinj

i love shinji.

i love shinji.

i. love. shinji.

I will not be able to attend the photoshoot tomorrow, nor will I be in work. Please accept this as a personal day's notice.

Thank you.

Mon, 09 Jul 2007 10:33:17 GMT

SHINJI SHINJI SHINJI SHINJI

GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT

I MET TACHIBANA-SAMA FROM WINGS YOU REMEMBER RIGHT?!!?!?!!

OH MY GOD HE'S...HE'S HERE IN TOWN AND HE TOUCHED AN-CHAN AND HE FIXED HER FOR ME AND TOUCHED MY HAND AND NOW I'M NEVER GOING TO WASH MY HAND AGAIN AND OH MY GOOOOOD IT WAS TACHIBANA-SAN I SWEAR IT HE CUT HIS HAIR AND DIDN'T BLEACH IT AGAIN BUT HE STILL LOOKS AMAZINGLY KICKASS

OH MY GOD IT'S SOOOO COOOOOL!!! AND WE'RE GOING TO ROCK OUT TOGETHER AND YOU CAN COME TOO AND HE HEARD OUR SINGLE AND AND *____*

pretending

Sat, 07 Jul 2007 21:07:17 GMT

I would run away but what would it change?
I'd be on my own, that much more alone,
And it's easier to pretend when you're in a crowded room
I surround myself with you, because it's easy to lie

I close my eyes, and it's easier to pretend
I act out a world of lies and fantasy
And how did I ever lose sight of what was real?
How could I forget what was right?

It's so easy to pretend when you turn out the light
And whisper to yourself in the dark
In the night, I hide the secrets of my world
And I forgot to draw the line at dawn

I'm surrounded with everyone and no one cares
It's like no one's there, but you're so near
I'd reach out, but I walk away
You don't even notice I've gone

But it's easy to pretend you're chasing after me
But it's harder to remember I'm not running
I go so far and move so little, as I distance myself in emotion
And I lose myself in the endless playground of my mind

More lyrics. Eh.

Kirihara, y'gotta say yes to something.

Ha?

Sat, 07 Jul 2007 08:42:19 GMT

Sorry about my last post guys! Some idiot decided to hack my account and say that I was quitting! (ahaha...haha)

BUT BUTBUT I'm not! SO you guys can count on Silver Broken Power Bomb BEING TOGETHER FOR A LOOOOOONG LOOONG TIME! HAHA!

Seriously you guys, we're like family. Why would I ever quit!? HAHAHAHA.

Ha.

So...

Hahaha.

Sat, 07 Jul 2007 07:49:00 GMT

I quit.

fans, hope you'll still support me. i'm gonna try and do a solo career.

can't do this band shit anymore.

i wish i could untitle you

Wed, 04 Jul 2007 06:59:09 GMT

So here's something I wrote a few minutes ago. What do you all think? I mean, I wanna make my fans happy, y'know...

The clouds have been painted black and the grass is now covered in blood
My bleeding wrist are invisible to the human eye
And I lock myself up in my room for the rest of the night
Counting pills and singing a suicidal lullaby

Tonight at midnight, midnight I shall fade away
Into another place, into another state
I shall grow my wings and fly
No longer shall I feel this urge to die

For death will be at my finger tips
And I will hold on tight to this
As I let go of my life
Leaving my degrading body to wither away

In a dirty ground, that will never be found
The rope is here by my side, it is the back up
For if the pills do not make me die
The knife is under my bed, tonight I shall get this right

My heart feels broken and I feel lost
There’s no more reason to cry
When I can slit my wrist and die
There’s no more reason to cry
When I can finally be free of my pain

Call me a coward, call me every name
But your not me, and you don't know how I feel
Don't pretend to care, don't say your listening
Don't say a damn word, just leave me

You spent years ignoring me so do that now
It is to late to restart and fix this
I have blocked and boarded up my heart
You are not welcomed here any more

I am tired of being asked how I am
Or if I am okay
I am tired of the words they say
They just need to fade away

Leave me be, I don't want to be used again
I've been used enough, I'm putting this all to an end
And I count the pills.. twenty two exactly
There’s no chance of survival, not tonight.

It's a little depressing, I think, but it really speaks to me, y'know?